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I wish that I were one of those people who could adopt another personality when online but I'm still the same awkward, self conscious, struggling to be secure in herself, gal that I am in real life. I find speaking my mind a bit easier through text but only slightly. I wonder if I'll ever outgrow this in either arena.

J had me write up a list of things I'd like to accomplish in the New year. It's something I've always avoided, I mean hey... no goals no failures, right? Anyway, one of mine was to get more comfortable socializing with those outside my small circle of safety. I talk a lot about it don't I? Making a molehill into a mountain. That's something I do amazingly well, take small issues and make them large. It's a talent. Uh huh.

I'm considering taking up running. This would require me to buy stuff. Neither of the two pairs of shoes I own are suitable for running. Actually neither are suitable for much of anything anymore. Add it to the list. I'd also have to get Tomas to return home from work before the sun sets so that I could have some time. Unless of course I can come up with some way to run with Isadora. Strapping a four year old on my back would surely burn more calories.

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Now who will you be talking to first?

Talked to some neighbors at school today. ;)

How did that go?

Perfectly fine.

Small steps. What's next?

Wasn't planning it out. Nor planning on planning it out.

Well, is there anything you'd like to accomplish by being more comfortable talking to others? Just . . . Being less scared of them, or what?

I guess the goal would be comfort.

But if comfort is the goal, wouldn't it be more comfortable to just continue avoiding others?

The goal was to become more comfortable socializing with other people. Not comfort in general. Comfort in that specific situation.

What else was on your list?

Nothing remarkably interesting. It was a short list.

My resolutions for the year were to quit smoking and quit sniffing glue.

Yeah. I hear you perfectly on not making goals. I do have goals, but it's a struggle to meet them, and I do try to do it day by day.

I could also use meeting more people, I think I'm tying that one into other goals though. Like taking a class or something.

You might should lay off the smack too wench.

I do better with very clear specific goals generally. Lose 30 pounds! Yeah, I can see how to do that. Some of the others are trickier. Anyway, I have motivation now. And confidence? Maybe? And you to bitch at me when I threaten to eat a pot of cream corn!

Yes, we can have a mutual bitching at each other support group.
(But I can keep the crack right?)