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Yesterday I came across the picture of a childhood friend somewhere I never expected to. It made me miss her. She was like a sister. We never had that much in common but I loved her and there have been few in my life that I can really say that about. She was the wild one... always pushing her limits... always getting away with too much. When we were young teenagers she ran away from home and we spent months looking for her. It was one of the traumas of my youth. As teenagers we split even farther apart. We went to the same school but our friends were completely different. Her's were the kids more prone to get into trouble... while I was the pet freak of the 'in' crowd... never really accepted as one of them just there to give them a bit of eccentric flair. She and I fought many times in those last years of high school. For some reason I became a focus for all of her anger. I still am not sure why, but even in all the squabbles we still loved each other. After high school she went off to bible college in another state. Her parents were determined to turn her into a televangelist. Instead she got married before I did and came home with her husband.
Anyway, all this to say how odd it can be when people drop in and out of your life with years between and yet still when you meet up again they are still the little girl you grew up with... I can still see us spinning in circles making our Sunday dresses twirl, playing house, throwing mini marshmallows at each other in her basement, teaching each other what little we had pieced together about the mysteries of sex by drawing naughty pictures in the carpet pile, stealing leftover communion bread and juice from the deacon's closet, crying over lost boyfriends, looking for lost confederate gold in her backyard, dancing to bad christian rap, her showing me how to dance like a stripper around a pole...

I miss her.

It's Oh So Quiet

Rhiannon spent the night with my mother last night, Isadora is still asleep and Tomas is at work. I don't even have any music playing because I am enjoying the stillness of everything this morning. Webvan (Glory be to Webvan) just delivered my groceries and my lunch. The living room is starting to look more like a living room and less like a garbage dump... yes there is peace in the land.