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May. 26th, 2001 12:18 amTomas has three whole days ahead of him with nothing really planned.... that should be good for him. Actually we made mini plans for tomorrow... sushi and movies.
I'm thinking about tinkering with my old camera again. My mother was really into photography when she was young and I've accumulated her old camera and darkroom stuff. Her enlarger was a toy when she bought it and basically is trash now but looking around on ebay they don't seem too pricey. I've played around with the stuff a time or two. There is something really amazing about putting a sheet of white paper into a dish of chemicals and watching a picture appear. I should look around for some beginners websites. I have a digital camera and an automatic one but I love the heft and feel of this old one. However, I will definitely need a refresher course on f-stops and such.
Tomas and I have birthdays coming up. His is on the 1st and mine is the 12th. Looks like we may end up with seasons passes to the Zoo and to Six Flags from both moms. That would be enjoyable I think. I had a Six Flags pass the summer I got pregnant with Rhiannon and went three times before I found out I was. The last time I went I remember some kids cut in line in front of us and it sent me into a complete rage. Ah, pregnancy hormones.
I'm feeling blah. I need to do something to spark some sort of emotion. Greg's been bitching at me lately and Tomas is just continuing on in his miserable ways and I feel like I'm moving through things half dead. I'm not depressed. Life, despite my lack of money or my own computer, is not so very bad, but I just feel so stagnant and lifeless. Will I live the rest of my life desperately trying not to become an average housewife and end up failing horribly? Why is it so hard for me to let go of safety and be the slightest bit daring? Why do I always hide? Why do people make me so nervous? Idle dreams. Ideal dreams. Go be for me.
I'm thinking about tinkering with my old camera again. My mother was really into photography when she was young and I've accumulated her old camera and darkroom stuff. Her enlarger was a toy when she bought it and basically is trash now but looking around on ebay they don't seem too pricey. I've played around with the stuff a time or two. There is something really amazing about putting a sheet of white paper into a dish of chemicals and watching a picture appear. I should look around for some beginners websites. I have a digital camera and an automatic one but I love the heft and feel of this old one. However, I will definitely need a refresher course on f-stops and such.
Tomas and I have birthdays coming up. His is on the 1st and mine is the 12th. Looks like we may end up with seasons passes to the Zoo and to Six Flags from both moms. That would be enjoyable I think. I had a Six Flags pass the summer I got pregnant with Rhiannon and went three times before I found out I was. The last time I went I remember some kids cut in line in front of us and it sent me into a complete rage. Ah, pregnancy hormones.
I'm feeling blah. I need to do something to spark some sort of emotion. Greg's been bitching at me lately and Tomas is just continuing on in his miserable ways and I feel like I'm moving through things half dead. I'm not depressed. Life, despite my lack of money or my own computer, is not so very bad, but I just feel so stagnant and lifeless. Will I live the rest of my life desperately trying not to become an average housewife and end up failing horribly? Why is it so hard for me to let go of safety and be the slightest bit daring? Why do I always hide? Why do people make me so nervous? Idle dreams. Ideal dreams. Go be for me.
