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I don't seem to be doing so well and I feel so stupid about it. No one that I am close with was affected by this but I just feel so damn shaken. I've spent the past several days watching the news all day long. Yesterday I wept over and over again. . . when they showed all the people with posters and papers looking for loved ones that probably will never come home again, all the stories of the lost, people all over the world crying and grieving with us. Everything just tears me up. I feel so emotionally exhausted and helpless. They don't need more blood right now because no one is really being found. I don't have much money to spare, and I can't even find a flag anywhere. Last night when Tomas came home from work at 1am I made him take me for some McD's fries (comfort food) and while getting in the car we saw a plane fly fairly low overhead. We just stood there in the driveway for a moment looking into the sky watching. It feels like nothing will ever be the same again.