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Dec. 21st, 2001 02:03 pmMmmm... spiced cookie candle... yummy. I don't get to use candles as often as I'd like anymore with the terrors running about but I'm guarding this one like a mommy with two toddlers.
Not much to say lately. Things are just kind of going. Stress over money but not as much as a lot of other people. We aren't starving and we aren't worried about losing the roof over our heads.
I've put some thought recently into what I want to do with my life. Once I decided I wanted to be a mother I (Rhiannon just interrupted my typing with a request that I sing a cow song, then a cat song, and then a 'kid show' song.) focused on that for years until I had them. Now I see my mother who is in her mid 40's, jobless, and all her children are grown. She spent her whole life and energy raising us and now she has nothing to focus her life on. I don't think she regrets it and I am sure I won't but I don't want to be 40 and feel lost. There are things I would like to do aside from being a mother but I don't want to do them until my children need me less. So perhaps I'll spend this time getting a better idea of exactly what it is I want to do and what it will take to get there.
Not much to say lately. Things are just kind of going. Stress over money but not as much as a lot of other people. We aren't starving and we aren't worried about losing the roof over our heads.
I've put some thought recently into what I want to do with my life. Once I decided I wanted to be a mother I (Rhiannon just interrupted my typing with a request that I sing a cow song, then a cat song, and then a 'kid show' song.) focused on that for years until I had them. Now I see my mother who is in her mid 40's, jobless, and all her children are grown. She spent her whole life and energy raising us and now she has nothing to focus her life on. I don't think she regrets it and I am sure I won't but I don't want to be 40 and feel lost. There are things I would like to do aside from being a mother but I don't want to do them until my children need me less. So perhaps I'll spend this time getting a better idea of exactly what it is I want to do and what it will take to get there.
