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[danuv]

Mom sounds bad again today. My uncle called on Friday because he's worried about her. She's depressed and very worn out. They've doubled her Paxil but ya know, she has reason to be depressed. He thinks she needs to be in a support group and she's not opposed to it really but isn't so sure it would be helpful to her right now. I understand where she's coming from. The happiest I've heard her lately was on Sunday after she got to teach children's church.

I was going to cook Breakfast Meal for her on Sunday but she has her second dose of chemo tomorrow so she's not sure she'll feel up to it. Either way we'll see her. There's a little voice inside me wondering if this will be the last Mother's Day I get to spend with her... not that there's any reason to think she's not going to be here next year but I suppose that I'll be thinking that for every event and holiday.

This is really hard.