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[danuv]

Bought the Strange Little Girls cd from Tori yesterday (got the Time cover). It doesn't look like I am going to be able to scrape enough together to buy a ticket to the concert even if it wasn't already sold out. I won't even go into how much that sucks.
Sunday we took the girls to the Zoo. It was nice. I'm glad I talked my mom into buying us a pass. We didn't use it much in the summer but we will more now that it is getting cooler.
I've been fighting with some pretty serious depression lately. The kind that makes me want to curl up in bed all day and stare at the wall. Hard to do that with kids that have to be taken care of. One my friends list peeps is/has dealt with similar things. Don't want to leave the house. Don't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. My mother was this way, her father had this problem, and his mother did. Who knows how far it goes back.
Which reminds me... I need to get my genealogy back in order. My files are all a mess and I haven't worked on it in a long time.
I've found a new hobby... tea. At least it's fairly inexpensive... I bought some samples from Adagio Teas last week. The main reason I like making coffee is the ritual involved... making loose tea has a similar process but I like the flavor of the final product much better. Now I want to get some girls together and go have tea somewhere. . . with little sandwiches and stuff. :)
Another thing I managed to do the past few days is screw up my hair. Greg has always wanted me to try red, so I did and it looks horrible. He just says it's the shade. I think I'm just not a red kinda gal. I think I'm going back to black and leaving some sections to do purple. I wish I had the kind of head and face that worked well with a shaved head. That'd be cool.

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[apesky.livejournal.com]

Hang in there girlie!

[bsgi.livejournal.com]

Are you able to go to your family physcian and talk about this and your family background. There is strong evidence to suggest that, in some, depression is inherited. With you parents both having it, some medication may be in order, may not. If you try them and they work quickly, you probably need them. They replace certain missing chemicals in the brain. If they do not work, it can mean either that that medication is not effective on you or that your problem is not biochemical. Good luck and hugs.

[danuv.livejournal.com]

You too. :)

[danuv.livejournal.com]

Yup, my mom is on Paxil and dad has been on things from time to time. I'm not interested in being medicated for the rest of my life and probably won't go that route unless things get really really bad. I'm just taking it a day at a time. But yes, there is a serious family history of depression on my mother's side of the family.

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[bsgi.livejournal.com]

Well, hang in and don't give up....everyone has to decide for themselve how they want to cope. I was like you...I could handle it....until I finally lost it one day...I changed my mind...if for no other reason than to save my family. I hope that it does not ever get that bad for you. Good luck, bless you, and HUGS