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Oct. 17th, 2008 09:25 amAnd now Jack is running a high temp and seems to have a sore throat. He's giving me those heart breaking, "Make it better mommy" looks.
Today's internet work consists of finding out about car refinancing and learning how to best use credit cards to improve ones credit score (keep a balance vs. pay it off every month?). I need to do some cleaning and take a shower but I'm a little nervous about leaving Jack alone even asleep right now.
I'm weaning off of the Domperidone a few months early mostly because it's incredibly expensive and we really can't afford it right now but also because I'm tired of the weight gain its causing. This is making me feel selfish. I'm worried that my milk supply is going to tank. I'm not 100% certain that it was super low to begin with but I really love nursing and don't want to endanger that. Realistically I'm sure that there's going to be a decent amount of milk and I know that Jack will likely continue nursing even if mainly for comfort (though I still think he's going to get a good bit of milk) but that little voice of worry in my head won't stfu.
I want to knit a lacy shawl type thing out of that soft fluffy mohair yarn. I'm not sure how to go about finding a pattern that is easy enough for me. Add that to my internet search list for the day. Hours browsing on Ravelry. Yeah, that's a smart use of time. :) I'm missing certain people (person) whose relationship with me was ended due to their being married to a .... so many words could fit there but I can't chose the right one. Still so much grief there in that part of me.
Despite the somber tone of certain parts of my posts recently, I'm not unhappy. Just grinding through a little normal life crap. I'm looking forward to my trip to Nashville with Tomas next weekend (though I wish he had better musical taste, how can you hate Tom Waits?!?!). I love driving through the mountains.
Today's internet work consists of finding out about car refinancing and learning how to best use credit cards to improve ones credit score (keep a balance vs. pay it off every month?). I need to do some cleaning and take a shower but I'm a little nervous about leaving Jack alone even asleep right now.
I'm weaning off of the Domperidone a few months early mostly because it's incredibly expensive and we really can't afford it right now but also because I'm tired of the weight gain its causing. This is making me feel selfish. I'm worried that my milk supply is going to tank. I'm not 100% certain that it was super low to begin with but I really love nursing and don't want to endanger that. Realistically I'm sure that there's going to be a decent amount of milk and I know that Jack will likely continue nursing even if mainly for comfort (though I still think he's going to get a good bit of milk) but that little voice of worry in my head won't stfu.
I want to knit a lacy shawl type thing out of that soft fluffy mohair yarn. I'm not sure how to go about finding a pattern that is easy enough for me. Add that to my internet search list for the day. Hours browsing on Ravelry. Yeah, that's a smart use of time. :) I'm missing certain people (person) whose relationship with me was ended due to their being married to a .... so many words could fit there but I can't chose the right one. Still so much grief there in that part of me.
Despite the somber tone of certain parts of my posts recently, I'm not unhappy. Just grinding through a little normal life crap. I'm looking forward to my trip to Nashville with Tomas next weekend (though I wish he had better musical taste, how can you hate Tom Waits?!?!). I love driving through the mountains.
