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Apr. 26th, 2001 01:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
danuvI wish that there was a way you could select a person to understand you. No complicated conversations needed... no awkward moment.... no misunderstandings... just Kaboom! and then they would know you... know all about you... know how you felt and thought and what you dreamed about... who you were in your fantasies... what you thought about when you were trying to go to sleep at night. And I wish that these people would always by default be worthy of knowing you. They would never walk away because of who you were. They would never be put off by some aspect of you. They would comprehend and love. Not in a sexual way even... just because they got you.
Sometime the insecurity that comes with sharing pieces of myself to what are really strangers gets to me. I wonder... will this be the bit that makes them turn away? Have I gone too far? Have I shared too much? I've always had a hard time knowing who to tell what to. ... knowing what boundaries to draw... knowing when to stop using those stupid little dots because I am too lazy to write real sentences... :P Off to bed now.
goodnight.
Sometime the insecurity that comes with sharing pieces of myself to what are really strangers gets to me. I wonder... will this be the bit that makes them turn away? Have I gone too far? Have I shared too much? I've always had a hard time knowing who to tell what to. ... knowing what boundaries to draw... knowing when to stop using those stupid little dots because I am too lazy to write real sentences... :P Off to bed now.
goodnight.
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Date: 2001-04-26 06:57 am (UTC)that and be naked lots... it's hard to be mad at someone when you are both naked :-)
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Date: 2001-04-26 03:27 pm (UTC)i get turned on and all fascinated like by the oddest damn things. it pisses me off when with friends and they can't understand why i don't want to leave those strange little perfect moments.
i think most of my favorite relationships ultimately didn't turn out due to frustrations over The Other Involved not understanding these things. and dammit, if they couldn't understand them, they couldn't understand me.
but yeah.. there was always some little moment where too much was shared and their eyes go wide and they walk away smiling politely. oh well.
hiya!
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Date: 2001-04-26 05:19 pm (UTC)I'm married to one of those people who will never understand parts of me. He tries though... poor boy. :) I don't think that even an instant knowledge would help him though.
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Date: 2001-04-26 07:19 pm (UTC)and! on the flip side (something i've started to appreciate lately), how cool is it that one's view of the world around them is shatteringly unique?
as soon as i meet anyone that knows my lust for MARTA signs and can help me steal one though, that's it, i'm taking them. (I was down in Atlanta just last week on business and visiting friends. and the MARTA bus signs and rusting white bridges are... ooo ooo).
My friends and workers down there were always entertained by my fascination, which was surprisingly pleasant.
damn..
Date: 2001-04-28 12:18 am (UTC)*hugs you tightly*